I dream about my sister, Susan, on a fairly regular basis.
Mom and Susan died within months of each other. The strange thing is I rarely dream of mom. I'm not sure why. I think about them both daily. Perhaps I don't dream of mom because we were blessed to have her pass so quickly, three weeks from diagnosis.
On the other hand, my family watched Susan suffer thirteen excruciating months before the cancerous villain claimed her. I spent a great deal of time with my sister during her illness. Maybe that is why I dream so much about Susan.
My dreams are all similar. Susan is alive, still in the clutches of cancer. She has dark, short cropped hair. Obviously her hair has finally returned after cancer treatments are completed.
In my dreams, Susan lives far away. She is in a different state. Susan is living by herself, no husband children or other family close.
Susan still manages to work full time. She is very busy.
I dream that I visit her for a short period. Susan doesn't like it. She wants to be alone. Much of the time, none of us even knows where she is or how she is doing.
Susan is firm about being alone and needing help from no one.
I always wonder what this dream means, if anything?
My thoughts then turn to Mom. Why do I rarely dream of her?
I wish I dreamed of Mom. I want to see her again. I want her to hug me and tell me she loves me. I want her to tell me that she and Susan are o.k.
I was with Susan much of the time during her illness. We grew very close. I like to think I eased some of her pain and sadness.
The dream burdens me because I want to know she is surrounded by love and happiness.
Who knows, maybe it's just a dream?
Tina, this left me with goosebumps because it parallels ALMOST IDENTICALLY the dreams I have about Sandy (my sister who died at the same age)....And I rarely dream about my Dad....Sandy is always detached. She seems to have no contact with her husband and children. In my dreams I'm trying to convey the devastation of her death (but in my dreams she is alive)and she is emotionally detached also - yet in life, absolutely opposite! We keep losing contact with her as she has moved far away and it's like she's slipping thru' my fingers; and there's nothing I can do about it, because that's the way she wants it.
ReplyDeleteAll to do with them having 'left' , I guess - despite the fact that there really wasn't a 'choice'....Aah, we need another long, intense conversation, my lovely xxx
Denise,
DeleteThat is strange! We are definitely two birds of the same feather.
Love Your Over The Pond Friend,
Tina
That is so strange because after my sister died at 26, I was 24, I had a recurring dream that she was being very
ReplyDeleteevasive and I kept getting mad at her and asking, why are you hiding from me? I drove to my mother's house
one afternoon and I swore I saw Sharon on a billboard just laying there and staring down at me. I was so mad
and that night in my dream I asked her why she did not tell us where she was. She just laughed at me as if she
was really still here, but not letting me know where.
It is similar to both of yours, but still a bit different. I think we are just sad that we really don't know where they are and if they are alright, huh?
I'm positive your sister holds you very dear to her heart. As far as dreaming about your mom, I don't dream about my parents either...I've talked to them about it, but 'they're not listening'...lol
ReplyDeleteYou are such a good example to me!
Love you Grands and Becky!
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